Im Sad

Yesterday, i went home late around 12 o'clock in the morning. We leave muadzam at 5 o'clock after the AFRB class, so that's explain why im being late.

We arrived at KL around 7pm something. lajukan?from muadzam..hahah.2hours only.then we went to The Curve to have our dinner. perut dh lapar gile tyme smpai KL.

We ate at the Manhattan Fish Market, the place that i worked before. All of us took the same menu,which is the cheapest yang bole kenyangkn perut.haha. so we had Manhattan Fish N Chips Pacific Dory. :)

how does it taste?

sedap.yummy.delicious.mouth-watering. but that's when you've an empty stomach. after that, you'll feel 'yulk' , 'loya' and intend to puke if you try to imagine the food inside your mind.hehe.

ok habes.

Hari ini aku bangun pg, solat subuh. bgos! aku pegi bilik kakak aku nk on9.n aku bukak FB la cam biase. n i saw this new update posted by my friend. then i tgk profile picture die dh tuka. rupe2 nyer gmbar die dan family at the airport before bertolak ke Melbourne.

Name kwnku ini, Yusuf Safwan aka ucop.die ni sgt la pandai dan die merupakan idola aku dr high school. aku try jd cam die tp x bole. die skolar Sime Darby oversea. dan aku?hanye skolar jpa biase yg x dpt oversea.sob3..

kemudian, i look into his album, there's picture of him in Melbourne. sungguh sedeyh dan jealous of course. aku mahu berada di sana. oversea. tp harapan ku punah. disebabkan aku tiade self-esteem and lack of leadership. knape dgn aku ni?knape aku takut utk bercakap. knape aku x boleh jd seperti rakan ku yg lain?yg tlh berjaya pergi ke oversea. sbg contoh, fahmi roslan. dulu die mmg baik dgn aku. blaja same2, klas pon same. tp die dpt pegi oversea, aku pula stuck in the jungle of muadzam.

aku mahu berada di sana. tp mmg aku tidak ditakdirkan di situ. aku bukan ingin menyalahkan takdir or ketentuan dr Ilahi, mungkin ade hikmah disebalik ini. tp aku blom nmpak hikmah tersebut. half of my former classmate akan fly kot, 3 org dari mereka dh fly. aku je la yg tinggal sorang2 di m'sia..sgt sedeyh..biarlah. aku dh mls utk memikirkan nye..skrng aku dh degree. aku nk buat yg terbaik utk my parents. tp first thing aku mesti buang sifat malas aku yg makin melarat ni..malas nk blaja, malas nk solat(astaghfirullah), malas nk buat sume benda. harap2 aku akan berubah. InsyaAllah.